And So It Begins...

I am sure that everyone (okay so it is three people!) who is reading my blog wants to hear this but my period started yesterday. FINALLY! The good news is that we can start trying in a few months or ... right away if we really wanted to even though it is against the advise of our doctor. I am fine with waiting another month or two because I really don't want a baby during the holidays. Anyway, my focus right now is on my business but at least I can start thinking about charting my cycle again just to see where I am at. I only did this for one month before we got pregnant last time and I am curious what my Luteal Phase length is. ;)

I also received a nice box of chocolates from a wonderful and kind Austrian fella sometime last week and finished off the last piece tonight. It wasn't entirely my favorite types of chocolates but who am I to complain?? Even Davin stole one and enjoyed it quite throughly. He was so funny because he came up to me after taking a quick break from his computer to have me wipe his hands. He usually sucks on his hands when he doesn't have a binky so this isn't unusual but then I noticed this dark stuff around his mouth and then the same stuff on his hand! Sneaky little devil.

Oh that reminds me that I think we are over the whole milk allergy/sensitivity thing!! So far, so good but it all started with a bowl of ice cream that Fredrik was eating at a friend's house that Davin just wouldn't leave alone. Davin had his own bowl of soy ice cream (which is really good by the way!) but didn't want any part of it. So, since it was a weekend and encouraged by another friend who had similar problems with their child -- we let Davin eat the regular ice cream! There was still a slight rash that appeared on his face and a small diaper rash the next day but nothing like what we experienced before! We have worked up to a 50% mix of soy and cow milk with no reactions -- the previous time we tried cow's milk, he threw it all up immediately. Wish us luck!

That is enough for tonight. Maybe I will have energy to post about the Sensaria Customer VIP event that I went to tonight this weekend. ;)

~Monica~

It still hurts

I feel fine most of the time about the miscarriage. At least, that is what I think but I have also been trying to stay busy to keep my mind off of things too. There are times it hits me and a wave of sadness comes over me. I almost start crying but usually hold it in because there are people around me.

I went shopping with a friend who is pregnant which doesn't bother me at all but we we stepped into the maternity store, I almost lost it and she promptly saw my reaction and directed me out of the store. She is a good friend.

I went to this home party and I didn't know most of the people there when the hostess announces she is pregnant at 8 weeks. I wanted to be happy for her. I really did. I think I am actually but the feeling of sadness is too overwhelming. I just pray that the same thing doesn't happen to her but at the same time I am angry, jealous or whatever. So I just sat there and tried to put on a happy face. I don't know how well I faked it since there were so many other people there to be joyful for me.

I watched an old episode of Sex and the City where Charolette lost her baby and I completely fell apart. I was at home and it was very late at night so I am not surprised this happened. Everyone needs a good cry.

~Monica~