WARNING: There are some graphic descriptions in this post!
It started last night around 5pm when I felt something sticky in my underwear. I went to the bathroom and discovered it was blood. It wasn't a lot -- a few spots but it was bright red. I got a pad and started monitoring the flow. Thankfully my husband was on his way home to help me decide when to call the doctor. I did feel really gassy after lunch that day so I was really uncomfortable but I also felt like my period was starting -- achy and a heavy sensation.
The spotting was barely enough to stain the pad but it was definitely noticeable when I wiped. And I had to wipe a LOT too. For the most part it was a pinkish brown but it wasn't stopping so I finally called the doctor around 9pm. The on call doc said what I pretty much guessed -- that it is a 50/50 chance it is a miscarriage or just normal pregnancy bleeding. So, I was asked to rest and call if the situation got any worse.
So, after a fitful night of sleep I woke up to a pad not really full but certainly completely stained. It didn't seem to get less but instead a little heavier so I called the doctor's office again. The nurse called me back and said basically the same thing as the doctor the night before. I decided to come into the office today rather than wait for my scheduled appointment on Thursday. Luckily, my own doctor was available and was able to examine me. Nothing was really conclusive (uterus was the right size and I assume the cervix was closed) so she ordered an ultrasound to see what is really going on. I got the sense that whatever the outcome wasn't going to be good: another ectopic, a miscarriage or a placenta problem.
A few hours later, as I was going to the hospital to get the ultrasound ... I was kissing my husband goodbye when I felt something wet sliding out of me. I checked my pants and saw nothing and thought it was just some blood that had gotten backed up. I was lying down the entire time I had gotten home from the doctor's office until it was time to get the ultrasound. Well, a few seconds later I felt it again and when I checked it was definitely something large, fleshy and disturbing. It was about the size of my thumb and did not look anything like a blood clot. I didn't want to admit what it was or looked like but I believe now it was the gestational sac. I left it for my husband to put into a container and call the doctor's office to see what we should do with it.
I left for my ultrasound and after checking in and waiting around to be called in, I got a really chatty and friendly tech. I normally wouldn't have minded but I knew the outcome wasn't going to be good. My uterus is tipped back so usually nothing interesting can be seen from the over the tummy ultrasound. Everything was fine until the vaginal one when she got really quiet. That also happened during my ectopic but it was silent the entire time and they made me wait for the results instead of sending me home like they did today. So, I knew something was wrong but she couldn't tell me anything. There was definitely no heartbeat except my own.
I had to wait a few hours for the doctor to call me back but it wasn't good news. Basically the ultrasound was sort of "inconclusive" but there definitely wasn't anything in my uterus. There was something near my ovary but it could be part of my intestines or a possible ectopic. I will need more blood tests to rule it out one way or another. In any case, the pregnancy isn't viable anymore.
Also, my husband dropped off the tissue that I passed for tests but those won't be done for about a week.
~Monica~
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